Fast and Furious
I'm quite the philosopher these days. I don't see how everyone isn't. That’s not what this post is about.
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A Song For The Road:
I believe that on some level we chose a lot of our lifetime before we got here. "Soul Contracts" and all that. (If you have no clue what I mean, look up near-death experiences and take a dive. Mayim Bialik has a great story on her podcast!!) This leads me to question, why did I choose such a stressful start to this Earthly life?
My mom tells the story of the night I was born, May 20, 1998. There was a horrible rainstorm, the cobblestones were washing down the streets, flash flooding, the whole nine. My dad kept suggesting that she lay down, as she was cleaning the house. Finally, she agrees. 30 minutes later they were on their way to the hospital. My mom thought I was going to be born in the elevator, but alas a couple hours later- Hello World!
She said I was the worst of the three of us, that she tore real bad, I came “Fast and Furious”. I can't help but wonder if that was the start of our occasionally contentious relationship. We do better the older we get, embracing our sameness and differences.
They said I hated being held. I'd cry and cry, so they'd put me down and I'd cry and cry. If they just sat and looked at me, I stopped. I just wanted to be seen, to have attention, to be in the company of others. If only I could have talked then. I’d have been talking their ears off from day 1.
I don’t think I’ve changed at all. I am extremely comfortable where I am, until I’m not. And then I’m REALLY not. Slow to decide, but once I do it’s hard and fast until I get what I want. I don’t like being constricted or shut down. I still crave an audience.
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I always wanted to paint the green, but I don’t think I would now. I guess I have changed lol
I’m relearning how to admit that last one. I always wanted to be a singer, or an actress, but since COVID I haven’t been able to fathom going back to it.
If you’re still reading, Wow, thanks! I’m literally just a girl, happy to have entertained you.
